Bila Cinta- GIO (male version)

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Dan ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Hingga engkau pergi
Tinggalkanku

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan

Ku sebut namamu
di setiap doaku
Bangkitkan setiap
kenangan tentangmu
yang ku dapat hanyalah bayangmu

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan
Uuu…
Di dalam harapan..

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan…

Bestfriend or boyfriend???

It's almost a year I try to muv on, leaving memories wif Mr. R... Now I'm targetting new one... Hehehe But there are too many buts in this relationship. Is he juz like Mr. R who juz like to be friend wif me and not more than dat. But believe me, sumtimes I feel really close to him... He always asked me out... The other day, I went out to McD Setiawangsa wif him to watch football Oranje vs Japan. Not so many people there but the most important thing we share our stories. Laughing together & gossipping together... I know we're happy together... But I know, he juz treat me as a friend... Not more than dat... Proof? For example, I pay myself for anything I bought. And also from the 'janda' story...
Want to hear bout the 'janda' story? Well, I dun really know about her but he always tell me dat, the 'janda' wants him so bad... But he always ignore her and treat her juz like his any girl frens... (I think I'm one of his common girl fren)... Well, about the story... The other day, he went to clinic becoz he had a fever... And he sms me about things happen at the clinic... So, I replied his messages like usual but sumthing weird happen... Yes, he did mention 'horny' but he never meant to do sumthing about it to me... REALLY! The message sounds like dis
He:"Horny baby orghhh kiss me kiss me"
Me:"Are u talking to me?"
He:"Ahh dun be shy hunny b.. i know u want it too...Alejandro"
Me:"Are u okay?"
He:"Ohhh ahh hit me baby. hit me, hit me more"
Me:"Hey, dats woman's script."
He:"*z** is sleeping. Dis is his fren. hehhe"
Me:"Oh ok, juz let him sleep. Good boy"
He:"Who r u? Are u the one who always contact him?"
Me:"No, dats not me. That's janda"
He:"Janda who?"
Me:"Well, it's a secret"
He:"I'm May*****. He's sleeping at the office"
At that time, I thought he was playing wif me, but it's true... Sumone did sumthing to his fon and delete all the messages...And u know wat, the 'janda' replied the messages... He ask me the next day about it and said "why did u mention 'janda'... Juz answer dat u r one of my fren"... At dat time, I realize myself again dat I'm juz one of his fren. Pity me huh...
Hmmm sumtimez I juz can't accept the truth, why did he chose another girl to fall in love wif but DAT girl never appreciates him... She is wif sumone else, and I'm the one who understands him (at least dat is wat I believe). And another fact is I'm pretty and kind and always be there for him...Many boys will try to make me to be their gf but I ignore them. And he juz can't see me!! My heart is not open for others but only for him... Why and WHY?!!!
But sumetimez I try to blind myself wif lies so dat I believe he is into me, it's juz the time is not right yet...For example, after the game, he ask me for a movie...Toystory3...Believe me, I never reject him...All his invitations are always a great idea for me unless I really can't. Eventhough I did promise to get home early but I always neglect it juz for him....Arghhh I'm really falling for him... The next morning, my sister & brother asked about the night,"what time did u get back home?" & "With whom?"...The truth is I was going out wif ONLY him. And then went movie ONLY wif him...And then my sister asked "are both of u couple?" I said "No, we're juz frens". And my brother asked," do you like him? or he likes u" and I answer, "No, he treats me juz like a fren" But my sister didn't believe "I dun believe you. I will never ask sumone dat I dun like to watch muvi with. Only both of u. At night??? After 10pm???" In my heart, I said to myself, "I'm happy if that is the truth, I wish dat he's into me... But he is not. Dear Allah, plz help ur slave... I'm too weak to face the reality...Plz give me a happy news.. I juz want to hear from him that he LUVs me. Until when shud I live a lonely life, and for how long shud I wait for Mr. Right... If he's not meant for me, plz show me who is my Mr. Right...I'm sick rite now..Not sure how long I can survive wif dis feeling"

i want to be free!

Sumtimez i think i'm really a stubborn person...eventhough my sister asked me to stay at home, i will never do dat... i prefer to hangout wif frens especially weekdays' nights...i dun mind if me & my frens juz talking, gossiping or anything else...the most important thing is i'm boring doing nothing...i dunno whether i'm really a bad youngest sister or i'm a normal person who juz wanna hav fun...i keep on giving excuses so dat i'm away from home..am i mean to my sis???

We Love MJ

Huhuuhu last night was unexpecting night. Watching 'This Is It' gives me positive impacts about MJ. Actually I'm not really a big fan of MJ, err actually not really a fan. I only knew he did exists until he died few months ago. Hmmm I want to make some review about last nite show. How am I to start? OK, when my bro asked me to join to watch the muvi, I'm not really excited. But he said, it's his treat... So, why not? Heheheh when I stepped into the hall last nite, there are few people only sharing the hall with us. I was wondering why. Thought dat this is sumthing dat people wait for a long time. I asked Hanna, and she said she oso dunno but at One Utama, the tickets were sold out. After the muvi, my bro said, actually our hall was 2nd hall. The 1st hall is full. So, forget about dat. We talk about the muvi. It started wif the dancers who selected all over the world. Saying TQs to MJ and how they really appreciated it, the chance to be in his show and it's like a dream come true. So the story is about preparing the concert that supposed to be held in July. But he can't make it. From the story many things I had noticed. First, he is really kind, humble, softspoken. When he asked the music director, he asked him politely. And most of the time phrases "God bless you" and "I Love You" are on his lips. Saying TQs, that is very sweet. For me, it's very seldom for me to meet people who is very easy to say TQ and really appreciate what people did for him/her. We shud learn dis from him. To be good and kind to everyone around us. He loves this planet, so we shud too. His msg "Heal the world" thru this documentary, we can feel it. We oso can see he loves kids. Well, everyone knows dat. Next thing is, at his age, 50 years old. He looks healthy and still fit. But juz now I read about him, he had aneroxia when he was young and become a vegetarian. Maybe because he danced a lot too. So the moral of the story, dance while u can. For a healthy lifestyle...hohoho juz kidding. But I really impressed how he danced. Plus he dances while he sings! He really knows how to control his breathing, vocal and etc. The music is in him! No one can do moonwalk juz like him. No one juz can't. Dat is wat really special about MJ. ;> Third thing is he is really committed to his work. When he tests the sound, he knows what he wants. And he knows what his fans expected from him. "We give what they want". All his doings are only for his fans. I'm sure the satisfaction is there when we can satisfied others. The other thing is he tries to help new stars to shine. He gathers dancers all over the world juz to help them acknowledged. The backup singers, the gitarists...All of them are new to me. But he chose best from the best. Sumtimes there are a lot of people who r talented but they don't hav the chance to show it... Well, this is it. Watching this documentary makes my opinions changed about MJ. Before this I hav a thought he is a freak because he transformed himself from black to white. And rumours said about his plastic faces and body will torn out. But till last nite it looks fine to me. And about the molestation, I dun really believe it. People do things for money and if he really did, it's all about his history. Maybe because his parents not really good to him. Especially his father. Well we dun really know. Wow, that's a lot to write about this person. Maybe u shud watch it by yourself. And then u'll understand. Me who is not really like him trying to understand and starting to like him eventhough it's too late. At least he gave me a good & positive impressions after his death. His death means we lose sumone who is very special, who is very kind, a star and loving is what he spreads. Inspire others to success and inspire others to inspire others too. Got what I meant? IF he really Muslim, may Allah bless him. Hope that all good deeds he did paid in good ways. Rest in peace....

dunno

now he's in kl... attending a workshop
he said dat he didn't reply my msg bcoz his line was barred
i dunno whether it's true or not...
usually i had a feeling dat i want to meet him...
but now my heart 'tawar' nak jumpe...
maybe bcoz i dunno how to react then
i juz replied "slamat berworkshop"
then he replied "ok"
i dun want to ask "for how long are u here" or "what time to what time is ur workshop"
those questions will attract "would u like to meet me" answer...
i wonder what will i reply if he asked me dat...
i dunno buddy...
my heart was hurt
i dun want to make it worse
i wanna keep us as a fren and when i hav a bf, i dunno what our relation is
i juz dunno

addicted to u

help me, i'm addicted to the internet...
it seems like i'm 24 hours in front of my laptop...
eventhough my intention was to study n searching articles thru the websites...
but then i keep on updating my facebook, playing games...
this is really dangerous coz ican't study...
please...change for your future
love yourself...

hope

talking to friends...sharing my problem about R really give me headache...
so many thoughts & opinions... makes me more confusing than b4...
i believe i'll do it my own way...
i wonder why am i so excited to tell my story to others...
maybe this is my 1st luv
or maybe i am hoping dat he will come back to me....soon