My promise

I will wait for him to contact me...
And if he did I will not answer him...
Let him feel what I did...
Later, until he begging on me then i'll consider it.
The Last time I sent him a msg is Sunday (26/7/09)
Remind me k...
Hope that i'm strong enough living without remembering him

Gantung by Melly Goeslow

Ku harus menemui cintaku
Mencari tahu hubungan kita
Apa masih atau tlah berakhir

Chorus:
Kau menggantungkan hubungan ini
Kau diamkan aku tanpa sebab
Maunya apa ku harus bagaimana
Kasih...

Sampai kapan kau gantung
Cerita cintaku memberi harapan
Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
Dan meninggalkan dirimu

Detik-detik waktu pun terbuang
Teganya kau menggantung cintaku
Bicaralah biar semua pasti

Chorus

Tentunya hubungan cinta denganmu
Membuat ku sakit
Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
Dan meninggalkan dirimu

My Happy Ending-Avril Lavigne

So much for my happy ending...
Oh,x7

Lets talk this over,
It's not like we're dead,
Was it something I did,
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging,
In a city so dead,
Held up so high,
On such a breakable thread.

You were all the things I thought I knew
and I thought we could be...
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending,
So much for my happy ending.

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends,
I know what they say,
They tell you I'm difficult,
but so are they.
but they don't know me,
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me,
All the shit that you do.

You were all the things I thought I knew
and I thought we could be...

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there,
So thanks for acting like you cared
and making me feel like I was the only one.
It's nice to know we had it all,
Thanks for watching as I fall
and letting me know we were done.

He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh, oh, oh oh,
Oh oh, oh oh

Is it an end?

dear R,
I dun know what did happen...
Hav i done sumthing wrong to u?
Many questions running in my head...
It's only about 2 weeks the great moments passed...
do u want me to forget it juz like dat?
i know our relationship is not like others...i know it's very complicated
i'm not asking u to leave her... i just want u to be with me, loving me, treat me well...dats all!!!
i realy miss u darling... plz do reply my sms, call me...
earlier week is not to hard to reply at least one msg but now u gave me nothing
u r torturing my soul...it's realy hurt
i juz asked u...r u serious wif me or it's juz a game...
n u didn't answer me neither...
i assumed dat is a no...n if u realy mean it, i think i shud erase u from my mind, my heart
but it's not as easy as i said...
i can't do anything...everything i do, ur face is everywhere
what shud i do? the only medicine is u...
i realy need u...
plz stop torturing me....

Missing him like crazy...

It has been a long time i didn't write my updates....
Well last 2 weeks, i think that is the most precious week...
I went out with R, the long time crush since matrix....
He has LI here in KL since May but i juz came back early July
so we went out when I got here
Tuesday...
We went out after i finished my class around 630 n arrived at sunway pyramid around 8pm..
this is all bcoz of the jam in KL..it's realy horrible!!
u know what, i was surprised when he hugged me from my back
I was speechless & suddenly asked,"why r u suddenly get so serious?"
well, i dun know what to say bcoz i was shocked..realy shocked
what's realy in his mind?
we planned to play bowling, but there's a league so we can't
i asked him to karaoke but i'm afraid we dun hav transports to get back bcoz it will end at 1230am
then idea of ice skating came up but we both dun know how
lastly we made a decision to eat at sushi king...
we ate n talking until the shop is closed...hehehhe
Wednesday...
i finished my class early n i went to library to surf the internet
and i saw him online n we chat....
i told him i finished my class already, n suddenly he asked to go out for karaoke
of course i'm willing to go
so we went to Redbox @ The Gardens...
yeah we sang for the sake 5 hours...huhuhu
and unexpecting scenes do occured...
he suddenly cuddle me, lying on me while i sing, n i realy enjoy this moment
never in my life a boy dare to hug me, & he realy gentle to me...
i liked it... :)
We sang along duet songs...how lovely...
Thursday
Juz went out for dinner at Murni
I asked him to dine there becoz he did mention about dis place...
His fren N also came & I brought Miss Y along
Yup, we had happy moments, talking, joking, great foods...yeah..
Friday...
supposely I went out with him again...
but it's raining heavily...so canceled
Saturday...
We went out for movie, Transformers: The revenge of the fallen
But before d muvi, we played bowling wif his fren, P & his gf, CT
He realy enjoyed the game bcoz he won
He scored strike or spare ONLY!!!
My bowling ball always crawling out of the track...hahhhah
spinning and going into the drain...
we played basketball too... but dis one we played the token machine not in the court
Lastly the muvi...we sat at the couple seats..n hugging the whole muvi
hehehe usually i well went out to the toilet during the muvi but then i didn't bcoz he did warmed me :P
we were holding hands after the muvi n b4 we were apart...
hmmm realy miss dat feeling
miss him
miss him like crazy!!!!!!
love you